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the thing i want everybody to understand (which a lot of people didn't seem to get from my posts) is that my decision has a lot to do with the fact that i'm ready to make a change in my life and move on. grogan brought up the winmag forum. i remember when i first joined winmag back in early 98. i didn't know jackshit about computers and was fascinated by all the info. i lurked, learned, started posting and really got into it. you know what? i really miss that. i'm tired of being stagnant like i've been over the last year or so.
i have made the decision to move on to the next chapter in my computer interest, my career, my hobby, which is networking and security. there is a lot to know and learn, and i want to get back to finding fascinating websites and forums where i can lurk, learn, post, and really get into it, be the student, not the teacher. i also want to get some training and certifications i should've gotten a long time ago, like network+, ccsa, cssa, ccna, etc.
but for all that to happen i need to be able to come home and pick up a book and study, or focus on a project at work, or go away for a few days on vacation, without having the urge to check my e-mail or the forum and make sure that everything is ok, the server is up, there is no flame war in the forum, etc. i need to disconnect, make a cut, move on, i can't drag this around with me anymore.
you all know it - pc911 is an addiction. for me with my emotional personality and ties even more so. i can't just do something half-assed, i either get fanatic about it or i don't do it. sandy can certainly attest to that.
this has been a very hard decision for me to make, you better believe that. i have pondered, considered, weighed, agonized, cried, wavered, tossed around, for this entire week. the fact is though that i have been getting to this point several times over the last year or so, and every time it happened, i got a little closer. this time i came to a conclusion, and the more i dealt with it and the implications, the easier and more logical it became.
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